“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” – Psalm 34:18.
I recently encountered something that threw me for such a loop, I wasn’t sure how to react or recover from the situation. A relationship that was near and dear to me came to an abrupt end. I was left feeling broken, betrayed and alone, so I did what any normal female adult would do. I planted myself in my bed and wallowed in my own self-pity for a couple days. I reminisced of all the good times, the uncontrollable laughter and the teamwork we shared. I grieved for a future that was now lost and I tried to wrap my mind around all the changes that were rapidly (and unwillingly) occurring. Whenever the heart-clenching fog would momentarily clear, I would hear Plumb singing in the background over and over, “God, I need you now.”
So many things were flying through my mind that it was impossible for me to grasp hold of any answers to my pain that might have been available. The wound was so raw, I couldn’t imagine healing. I just wanted to shut my eyes and stay under the covers until things returned to normal and the world made sense once again. I felt as though there was no way I could let go and move on. Now I didn’t lose my wits to the point where I forgot about the one who could help me. I knew that things were moving and shaking because God’s plan was in action. So as Plumb so melodically belts out, I cried out to God several times begging him to ease the pain so I could see more clearly what was in store. I prayed. I looked up scriptures that dealt with what I was feeling. I prayed some more. I messaged Christian friends who comforted and encouraged me. I prayed some more.
“God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” – Matthew 5:4
I must admit, God reacted to my prayers more quickly than usual. After a few short days, the smoke began to clear. I started to see some positive things hidden within all this unplanned change and even made peace about the lost relationship. New ideas of things to come started occurring to me and I actually began to grow excited about this transition. I started having so many new ideas about things to come, that I felt like God and I sat down for tea and he plainly told me everything he wanted me to do as I took dictation in awe.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11
After the shock of it all began to wear off, I wondered why God had to be so dramatic and rock my world to the point of near destruction if he wanted me to do something different. Why couldn’t he just send a brightly-colored butterfly messenger that would soar in on a rainbow and sweetly sing his tidings? Of course, then I began to think of Gideon and how God sent him to conquer the Midianites with only 300 men; and of Elijah who God hid from King Ahab and fed by ravens; and of Moses and how he led the Israelites out of Egypt with no idea of where they were going; and of David fighting the monstrous Goliath. They all had to face hardships far greater than anything I have experienced and all triumphed because of their trust in God. So I shall do the same and look ahead.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5-6
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